To Hide Her

by Toehider

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To Hide Her is the debut album from Toehider, following 12 EPs of stupendous quality in 2008 and 2009.

Featuring the smash hit single 'The Most Popular Girl in School' and some other pretty cool tracks, the bulk of the album was written and recorded in just one week, as part of the infamous "1in1" project.

As always, Mike Mills' penchant for whimsy and melodic outrageousness is captured here, along with poignant melancholy and the sense of experimentalism that runs through all his pop-inflected work.

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released 22 September 2011

Mike Mills - just about everything

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Track Name: Oh my God, He's an IDIOT
Oh my god, he's an idiot
Take one look, it's immediate, not much there goes on behind his stoner eyes.

Oh my gosh, he's an imbecile
Hits on chicks, and here all the while
Is you and your poor,innocent, sweet heart...

He never calls you back
He's selfish in the sack
Knows nothing of romance
A moron with no clue

I don't know much either, my dear,
But its so obviously clear.
He has no frickin idea what he's got in you.

Oh my god, he's an idiot!!
Acting so inappropriately and with no thought or concern for how you feel.

Oh my god, he's oblivious
self-important and devious
Just resign yourself to the fact that you're never going to figure him out.
Because without a doubt

There's forces within that man
That he clearly doesn't understand
He acts on his dick's command
(and excuse me for being obscene) but -


Somewhere down the line, you should
Get outta this waste of your time
Because, baby, if you were mine, I'd treat you like a queen...
Track Name: The Most Popular Girl in School
She said “excuse me” and then proceeded to bump into my chest.
I said “which way are you going?” and as I did so I lightly brushed my hand on her boob (oh my god!)
Then it was over, no four leaf clover could provide enough luck.
I turned around but she’d gone, and on a desk in my form her boyfriend wrote “I’d recommend you keep your eyes and your mind off my property.”

Totally wish I had more balls than that.
I’ve tried to forget it, but it just keeps coming back
Totally useless at reading her signs.
I’ve re-lived that moment a million times.
Total cliché time...
"I wish I could die!"
Tragic and tristful, and terribly tongue-tied
Totally blew my chances with the most popular girl in school.


He’s so mysterious, it’s like he doesn’t care to play these dumb games.
He’s in a world of his own, and at recess he goes to play his metal pointy loud guitar.
And Brad’s an idiot, he makes me do stuff that I don’t wanna do.
Besides, this new kid is cool, he stammers hard like a fool,
And sweats so bad, like he’s in an ocean of infatuation

Totally hating on people I “like”
Maggot on Breezers and high as a kite
Keep up appearances, a constant display
Greasy pork sandwich, served in a dirty ashtray
He seems so bright, bet he thinks I’m so dumb
The party’s this weekend, he probably won’t come.
Totally wish I was more than just the most popular girl in school.

Later at the party, she got wasted and she went home with a loser.
He could have most anyone, so why’s he have to be a jerk and choose her?
“Saw him in the corner, he’s not talking, he’s just looking round, he’s SO weird
What the hell’s his problem, he should leave if he thinks he’s too good to be here!”

Now she looks caustic, some backwards logic tells her I’m an asshole?
It’s not my fault, I just don’t like to talk, with so much to hear.

Totally awkward, vacant and gone.
Shallow and air-headed, talks like a moron
High-brow elitist, god he's such a dick...
Think I'll just stick with the library chicks
What was I thinking? Freaks stick with their kind.
She's so misguided but she can think what she likes
Totally won't waste my time again.
On the most popular girl
The most popular girl
The most Popular girl in school.
Track Name: Daddy Issues
Carrying burdens, and staring at nothing, a tap on the shoulder.
“You’re too young to get it, just play with your toys. I’ll explain when you’re older”
The cradle and cat, man - enough with the Chapin. I get it, it’s ample.
You think you can teach, so you teach what you think, but they learn by example.
She keeps to herself, and she rarely contributes, here under the table.
And she carries the weight of the world that surround ds her, she’s willing and able.
“It’s just a suggestion, don’t take it as gospel.”

Took them outside to gaze at the clouds, with such fascination
“I can see trees, that one looks like a car…” a surge of creation
“People will take that stuff just because they have no imagination.”
Try to speak openly, exercise patience to spark conversation.
Part of me wants them to turn out like me and be scared of the devil.
But part of me wants them to seek out adventure, be not so damn careful
It’s just observation, don’t take it as gospel.

WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
I CAN’T WRITE IT OFF AND START AGAIN
AND ALL I DON’T DO ACCOUNTS FOR SOMETHING
ACCUMULATED BLAME

Carry the blood down, the elder’s a liar, the uncle’s a user
The mother’s irrational, father’s incompetent, scatterbrained loser
Inherently take on the traits and mistakes of whom they’re exposed to
Try hard to influence, set a good path, do as you’re supposed to.
But how do you combat the rot that’s so deep and so heavy inside them?
Supposing you spare them from nightmares and spiders that sit down beside them?
I want to forget more
But I’m always reminded

WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
I CAN’T WRITE IT OFF A ND START AGAIN
AND ALL I DON’T DO ACCOUNTS FOR SOMETHING
ACCUMULATED BLAME
WHAT IF ALL I TRY AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
CAN’T JUST RIDE IT OUT ACROSS THE SKY
AND I KNOW YOU’LL BLAME ME FOR SOMETHING
LIKE NIGHTTIME BLAMES THE SUNRISE

Things aren’t getting clearer
Think it’s such a shame
Try to make a difference
When things turn out the same
You are why I’m living
And I am all you’ve got
And you’re too young to worry
And I’m too old to not
And you’re too young to realise
And I’m too old to see.

All in a day’s work, it’s taking forever what used to an hour
Stuck with a dragon, a princess, a promise, and ivory towers
The messages mixed, inconsistently fixed, they don’t need the confusion
The lessons are tangled up tight, but at least it creates an illusion
They don’t make them good anymore, like they used to, they’re built to be thrown out
With minds on the game, we switch on, we switch off, we sit back and we zone out
And memory’s trigger, well, father it figures…

WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
I CAN’T WRITE IT OFF AND START AGAIN
AND ALL I DON’T DO ACCOUNTS FOR SOMETHING
ADD IT TO THE
WHAT IF ALL I TRY AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
CAN’T JUST RIDE IT OUT ACROSS THE SKY
AND I KNOW YOU’LL BLAME ME FOR SOMETHING
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
WHAT IF ALL I DO AMOUNTS TO NOTHING?
Track Name: In This Time
VERSE 1
Opening my eyes to see your hair spread on the pillow
Something I can't take in all at once.
It's like you're always smiling, you seem genuinely happy that you're here right now.

And you stand, like Venus on the shore, in shell, uncovered.
and I scratch my head at how I got this right.
What's the chain that seems to link my dreams and fantasies with what's in front of me....?

CHORUS 1
But to be sure, I am not counting on it, but I don't rule it out
No promises we know might not come true
Tomorrow is an empty shell, and the past has come to pass
I'm just happy to be in this time with you.

VERSE 2
In my way, I've come to understand that time is a reflection
And reflections are just old, recycled light
It's easy to confuse the phosphenes, firing out in colours,
for falling stars

CHORUS 2
Far beyond both cloud and moon, or sitting in my hand
There's nothing else that I know how to do.
But here inside my chest, or all of aeons far above
I just feel lucky to be in this time with you.

I don't know. A second? Or a billion million years?
In the grand scheme of things? Hell, I don't have a clue
But I'm certain that this fraction, now, is really all we have.
I'm just happy to be in this time with you.
Track Name: To Hide Her
FIRST VERSE
Again the bottle spun, and pointed out the next incision
I liked to think that I could choose, like it’s my own decision..
(But) of all the thinks that I could think I’d never thought of saying
Yeah Love is love, and love is all, but is love self-containing?

Things are good, and things are bad, things turn out as they turn out
Just grit the teeth and climb the mountains till you’re all but burnt out
Open up, but not too much… just enough to let the warmth through
Such a kind soul, and pure of heart, seems such a shame I want to hide her.
Boundless love comes with a binding ring
Love that thing I’ve put you in.

SECOND VERSE
And every day I would squint out the green that filled my eyes up,
My enemy, but mine alone, and one that I can’t bring up
One might assume that when I’m silent, my whole soul is spinning
I just can’t give the satisfaction to it, that it’s winning.

I cannot speak of it, because it alters your behaviour
Concretes imagination, words solidify the stranger
The mask you’re in, so masculine, Remove it? I’d be mad to.
He’ll touch her like she touches me, can’t stop the want to have to
To hide her.
You seem enamoured, fixated on him.
Love that thing I’ve put you in

THIRD VERSE
Chameleonic tendencies, a flair for adaptation
I’m not two-faced, I just react in certain situations
It’s not a happiness that I persue, it’s education.
So long as there’s a chance of growth, I will endure frustration.

That need to understand is futile, I must learn acceptance
And face the charge, that green-eyed spark that seeks its own repentance.
There’s no such thing as contradiction, it’s called ‘’changing your mind’’
The more I speak, the less I give, and less I find I have to – to hide her.
Speaking of it gives much less to sing
Love that thing I’ve put you in
Track Name: There's a Ghost in the Lake
(talking to myself – )

Everyone there thinks they knows the truth

Everyone dismisses your excuse

They saw the van, they saw your grass-stained knees.

The couple living west up on the hill

Heard the splash when night was gripped with still

And saw the moon was bouncing in the pool.

You saw them watching, and you know you did.

You saw them see no matter where you hid.

You saw them like you saw her hollow eyes…

But keep your own eyes open, toe to steel

Press on forward, focus, steer the wheel

Don’t confuse the truth with what they saw

(speaking out loud to myself -)

If Jess were here, then she’d know what to do

She’d tell me to be calm and tell the truth

But she told me not to tell the truth just this one time….

And why am I so anxious and forlorn?

Why am I? I’ve done nothing wrong!

I’ve only done as she had always wishedI feel her weight still, heavy in my arms

Just like she used to sleep with peace and calm

And why’s that moonlit mist still in my eyes?

What’s the truth, and what’s reflected blame?

And how do I exude it from my brain?

The blood and water as she left my aching hands…



PULL THIS VAN OVER/DRINK TILL I’M SOBER

SHUTTING MY MIND UP/CLOSING THE COVER

I CAN STILL SMELL HER/WISH I COULD TELL HER

I LOVED HER BEFORE /LIFE WAS SUCKED FROM HER

IF I CAME CLEAN HER PARENTS WOULD KILL ME

BEST IF THEY THOUGHT THAT SHE’D RAN OFF WITH ME

FOCUS CONCENTRATE, PUSH ON AS DAYBREAK

TAKES OVER NIGHT AND TAKES OVER MEMORY…



I’m in over my head, I’m slipping much further awake.

My best friend is dead, and now there’s a ghost in the lake.

(me -)

“I’ll damp the cloth, and fill the water cup

You need to drink, and dear, you’re burning up

Your skin is raw, and blistering and white

Babe, you’ve not the strength just to get dressed

Dear, you need to see a specialist

I know you don’t believe, but babe, it’s time…”

(Jess -)

They have no idea what’s best for me.

The body creates its own remedy

Their cures are all just masks, a waste of time…

It makes no difference, nothing’s any good

I can hear them now “we did all that we could”

I’d rather die like this than with a poisoned mind.



But I don’t want to pass rotting, boxed, confined

Throw me where my shell can be purified

Give me away like I was never here

Throw me out and let Mother do as she (pleases)

Please, if you love me, Take my dead body

Hand it to nature (so) I can rest quietly

Leave this stupid town, like we always said

Don’t tell our families, don’t taint their memories



I’m in over my head, I’m slipping much further awake.

My best friend is dead, and now there’s a ghost in the lake.
Track Name: Giants Who Walk With Man
Coming from above, enamoured with their beauty,
The angels from the skies, they took to the earth, and they
Came and sought daughters of man of their choosing
Knowing not the creatures of which they would birth
200 descended on the summit of Mount Herman
Driven by the lust for the mortal flesh
Carrying the winds of defiance along with them
Sworn by oath, to fulfil Samyaza’s wish.


CHORUS
They’re taller than the trees
They’re stronger than our force combined
We fall down to our knees
They’re mightier than the human kind
Save us from these beasts
Spare us of the torture from
These giants who walk with Man.

The sons of God would pay, cast into Tartarus
To spend forevermore in eternal black
In Canaan they would roam, this fierce and dire creatures
Of which the sons of God and girls of man begat.

The Nephilim would tower all those around them
Watch as children, dogs and women cower in fear
Taking as they please, owning all that surrounds them
Feasting on the cattle, Stripping forests clear

BRIDGE
They ripped the bones from flesh like bark from trees.
They pounded skulls and drove us out to sea
Lord, won’t you spare us of the torture and dismay?
The prophets did come forth ,heed their warning
A great flood will come and wash all the sins away…
Track Name: Fireside
I’d watch my Dad make this toast fork ,

Bend some wire he’d find up in the shed.

Then he’d take some mesh from a flyscreen

Make a little bit where he’d rest the bread

Man, I wish I could do something useful

I never could do the cool shit that he’s done

I was in my room like a dickhead

Playin’on the box that he’d backward strung.



Sitting out by the fireside.

Laughing tears, smoke’ll sting the eyes

Kicking back and wasting time



Now, I’ll strum some Slim out with the old man.

We’ll play a G, and we’ll go to the D.

I’ll play some wanky Chet licks

Meanwhile the old man’d take it back to the G.

He’d say “How the fuck do you do that?

I can barely take the bass down for a walk!”

I’ll laugh and shrug my shoulders, say

“I’d rather I could make those cool toast forks!”



Drinking coffees by the fireside.

Watching stars shoot across the sky

Reminiscing and wasting time.

Cunny funts by the fireside.

Laugh so much, you’d have to hold your side.

Telling jokes and wasting time.
Track Name: Everybody Knows Amy
I’d be in a bar in Brisbane, and some guy walks up to me and says, “yeah, I know you through Amy”

Or even at my best friend’s wedding, this chick’ll be all like “Hi! I went to school with Amy”

Seems like every time I turn around I meet one of her friends.

Everybody knows Amy.

This one time a guy named Ash bailed me up and said “are you in a band with Amy?

and I was like “yeah” and he said “I taught her at Box Hill! Can you say ‘hi’ from me?”

So, before I forget… if you’re listening to this Amy, Ash says hi.

You know, it ain’t no big deal if your part of Amy’s crew.

Because guess what? I know Amy too.

I bet YOU know Amy.

I bet you worked with her or something, or maybe you’re on the same netball team as Amy.

Or you could be anyone, ever, and you’d have met her, well that’s my theory

Seems like every time I turn around I meet someone she knows

You know, it’s not impressive if you’re someone Amy knew.

Because GUESS WHAT?!?!



I know Amy too.